Saturday, September 13, 2008

filthy crime

For heaven's grace, I was acquitted. It was years ago when I killed someone. I was young then but I already had the concrete idea of right and wrong, of good and evil. But with devil's provocation, I unintentionally killed a person - bit by bit. It was only after 8 years when I found out that the person had died dreadfully and the reason was the filthy act that I did, which is a crime. I was taken aback and I had the grave feeling of doomsday hell. I knew that time that my soul would be crying out in hell. Every day was hell and even in my dreams that person was haunting me - crying for help with broken vocal folds. I thought of killing myself too but I realized something important, something elusive but relaxing. Then I made a promise - as I always do at times of hopelessness. I made a promise of reviving the soul of that person. Though I haven't made any move yet, the security of that promise has been living up with my veins. Yesterday the gate of forgiveness has opened up for my soul, for my soul to revive himself. I was able to face the person whom I killed 10 years ago. Then I recalled my promise and made a whisper to my soul, "today, you'll take breaths again and today we'll make that promise into a reality.

...a new day, a new relationship, and a new life -rebirth.

Fear...
"Fear is sickness" so we need to face it and digest it whole for us to move on. Fear of unknown is a great hindrance to fulfill our own personal legends. Do not fear...

Forgiveness...
Ask for forgiveness and it will be given up to you. Forgiving an enemy is easy than forgiving a friend who wronged at you. But the most difficult person to forgive is no other than your self. The guilt of doing a crime is always there – at the back of your mind, and every day is becoming as hard as the guilt accumulates - it never ceases to flow. But that's the thing that I have learned today - to forgive your self. Forgive your neighbors as you forgive yourself. Life moves on once you unload the grump of guilt feeling. No one is perfect. Everyone makes wrong things for once in a while or more often. For us to start a new day, a new relationship, and a new life -rebirth, we need to forgive ourselves...

6 comments:

Amorgatory said...

pre increased blood sugar ako...wink* maya nkow comment lol

OR said...

wow.. personal legend!

ckulit said...

Is this for real lol.. palalim ng palalim mga post mo padi hehehe..

Sowi just got back from work...

Kumusta lamang?

Filthy room said...

maray man chulit...wahehehe, eu totoo ini!lol! ingat pirmi!

Anonymous said...

dh: Forgiveness - pede internal or external...more likely external gestures...
Fear - definitely internal...tsk lalim mo sunny...lol...."to ere is human to forgive is divine" by nakalimutan ko na...lol...tc

Filthy room said...

dh gumawa k n rin ng blog mo...aheheh!