Thursday, December 25, 2008

it's my snowy wonderland!!!!

I was trained to become a proactive person. The vulnerability of my youth was taken care by my craft of getting to know the lives of other people. Criticizing made me to stand ten feet taller - for having such advantage than all the people in the world. But with words, you can easily detect abnormal mind from the standard, and you can read the next move of your decoders or even plan out a perfect counteract for their feedback.
It took me days (or weeks) to decipher this floating feeling of mine until thoughts got crumpled and emotions got crippled. It’s all about the continuum – the past, the present, and the thoughts for the future. We were happy then, we’re confused at the moment, and we’re starting to feel the burden of anticipating the tomorrows. Lots of nights were already wasted on putting the blame on me, for all the confusion that sets us apart. I thought so hard and tried to dig out the real problems. Was it with me or with you? Reducing all the propositions and parameters of the illogical statements, the problem is no other than me. It’s simple, so simple to put the blame on me, and so simple reason to mourn each day. It’s a simple escape to the complexities or I may say simplicity of the problem. Don’t look at me that way and puh-leez remove that finger on my face. Do I really deserve it? Maybe, just maybe. But I do accept any consequence that you’d like to lay down upon my table. Simple!
But let’s take a little review of the not-accounted facts of our time together – the not-so-remote past.
I offered a genuine friendship and of course I made my craft of the getting-to-know phase interesting for both of us. My intention was pure, true - no stain of hoax. With just a little time, we made it through the happy merry go around. It’s nice, mushy, and dupah ubah supah cool. It was a good thing to think or wish that it would be forever. But here comes the clich├ęs, read it; nothing last forever (only diamonds last forever), and - the only constant in this world is change. Fed up with these tag lines? So what’s next? Let’s just say that in every script there should be a twist. Alright, the whirlwind came in, but technically in our case it was a cold war or the unspoken grieves, the controlled misery that’s haunting inward. In your point, of course, the problem maker was me. In the eyes of the third observer, it would be the same judgment, I guess.

Here’s my lame excuse. Everyone has his own history, some are good but mostly are horrible…Alright, I forgot!!!

It’s Christmas

! I shouldn’t be talking like this…Let’s continue this on some other time, I’m just tired!

Oh, pardon me

- only given to a sinner!

Despite of the glittery and shiny ornaments around the streets, the children who sing merry medley and the touch of the wind, I find myself in solitude just like the monster with tiny hearts that lives in a snowy Mount Crumpit. I guess the Grinch has stolen my Christmas. Weeks prior to Christmas, I was very excited; I bought gifts early and I visited some good places. But then as the days came close to Christmas, my world became cold, blurry, and confused. And now – it’s black! Grinch why’d you do this?

Anyhow,

Happy Christmas to all of you!



Oh, it's crushin' me inside - the sublime moment of my life, my snowy wonderland...

17 comments:

kosa said...

nothing last forever (only diamonds last forever), and - the only constant is this world is change.

yun din ang sabi ko eh..lols
anu ba to, love lyf related?
family matter?
taena.. ang lalim di ko mahalukay..
paskong pasko kase ang nsa isip ko.

sige sige, have yourself a merry ltlle christmas..lols

sunny said...

ahahahahahah! nakalimutan ko nga pasko! haiz!

chubskulit said...

ano ba yan Sun, paskong pasko eh.... Let's drink and be merry hehehehe.. Whatever is bothering you, sana nga magkaayos na kayo.. hirap ng ganyan, mabigat sa dibdib... Merry Christmas Kabs!

misty said...

Padi, wag ka namang malungkot paskong pasko eh.... Maligayang pasko Kabs!

joops said...

Chill Out Man, things happen for a reason.....

Happy Holidays!

or said...

uhmmm....
eto lang masasabi ko..

Promise me, you'll always remember:
You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.


familiar ba?

those words came from....

sunsideup88 last (08/08/2008)

kaya cheer up!

and one more thing, sabi nga..

The thing we call failure is not the falling down, but staying down.

Smile! Happy Holid.... errrr... Merry Christmas na nga lang! lol. tc!

FR said...

chubs, misty and joops, many thanks for the encouragement and greetings!!!!! Happy Christmas!

Amorgatory said...

wait lang read kow ulets, lol..pra kasing familiar ung scene eh,lol..brb ttae lang akow..

PaJAY said...

Parang ang lalim ng piyesa mo parekoy a...lol..

sino ba tong maswerteng dilag na binabanggit mo?..parang dapat may part two ang post nato...hahaha

Merry pasko pareko....

araw said...

OR,hehehehe san mo yan nahalungkay? hehehehhehehe! natuwa ako dun ah! thanks for being there OR...many thanks!

or said...

feature ko sa blog sUN, kung san ko nahalukay ung message na un. tapos post ko ung link dito.. para naman may exposure blog ko. lol

sheng said...

Maligayang PAsko sa iyo!

sunny said...

@ Amor, anong familiar scene?lol! ahahahahahaa nkakrelate ba?lol

@ Pajay thanks for droppin by...part 2 bukas n lang!lol!

Amorgatory said...

Actually sun sobrang nakarelate ako sa familiar scene,lol..

doolee said...

nosebleed ako sunny hahaha... lols anyway, meri xmas ulit hehehe... ingat...

Maus said...

merry christmas sun!
stay happy may new year pa naman hehe

Anna said...

very nice blog.
merry xmas