Saturday, July 12, 2008

my failed day!

I was impulsively quick in my walk to booksale, "at last ill have that book" talking to myself with intense emotional burst, lol." ill never let go of you again"
Because last Wednesday, I hanged out at booksale just to kill time. Then after a drawn-out browsing, I found this absorbing novel "the cider house rules by john Irving (one of my faves). Sheesh! Without a faltering thought, I took it hurriedly and queued up. Then when I came with my turn to pay for it, I pulled out my pocket (I was confident that I have some extra bucks on it) and surprisingly (lol) there was only a 50-peso bill on it and the book costs 80 pesos (only -on sale). I felt so sad, lol and I went home with a devastating sorrow.
So it’s my chance to own it, I looked into the shelf wherein I hid it imperceptible by the eye (last wed)but jeez, it was not there anymore. I asked one of the sales persons about the book and she told me that they had just rearranged the books on that shelf. Therefore, the book must have been placed on a different area or it was already sold. With all my guts, I looked for it but then, I failed. The money on my wallet…Useless.

Monday, July 7, 2008

Ohright! I need an encouragement, pathetic!

I woke up at around eight in the morning but the weather was so inviting for a nappy extension. Instead of getting up, I curled up again to my Mickey Mouse pillow and savored the cold rainy morning.
“Hey, I thought you have a walk today?” asked my sister while drumming my shoulder
“Did I tell you?” “Did I?” my reply
“Shoo, get up, you sloth” shrieked my sister
Thanks goodie, there was someone who kicked my ass for me to get up.

Instead of crunching up the breakfast, I went to the pc and checked on my mails, blogs, and my affiliated chat box.
Okay, there was no one around…On the time that I was to leave, there were chatters who popped up. Damn! I wound up and I started talking about the sloth things in life. Sheesh, I loved it, the nonsensical talks. I did not notice time until one of the chatters had whacked me up, calling me a jerk and telling me to get a life, lol.
Thanks goodie, there was someone who hit me up for me to eat my breakfast.

Then, I gobbled my pot of coffee and bread. I turned on the TV and sheesh! It was the music countdown. Hmm… It’s been for ages already since the last time I had an update about the music snippets. Gotcha, couch potato!
“Ay! Aren’t you going to use the restroom? I’ll dump”
Oh Shit, I do not want a lungful scat!
Thanks goodie, there was someone who grossed me out for me to take a bath.

“the hardest thing in life...”

Pathetic life...

I thought it was just the usual sadness that would die after a little mourn in a day but the feeling was becoming intense day after day as if I had a grave loss. Then I started to perceive negative things about my life – the empty mood, loss of interest to my old leisure pursuit like reading and making test drills. Everything went out of synch and all of my pessimism had compounded that caused indolence and eventually caused me to do nothing (only with the compulsion of just sitting back). Oh! Pathetic life… My schedule was ruined and all of my appointments were just gone to nothing. I’m broke.

Then I remembered what I used to do during my off-putting days at school. One night, I lit a candle, played my sax soul collections and started burning some sandalwood incense. My sadness got me down on my knees and started crying for no reason. It’s all planned, a plot to be unhappy. When all of my tears had dried, I felt a relief and it actually made me feel good. Thinking about the context of my feelings and letting it to flow freely really had moved my mood sanguinely. I don’t know maybe it’s a temporary depression but still I valued it, it made me realize some important features of human, the sense of happiness and how to value happiness. This is pretty mumbo jumbo but it truly enriched my being.

By the way, I think that night, I prayed.
not feeling well today...
I got up late and my boring day had started with "..."

killin' time

for the past few weeks, i was bored-to-death. Time's moving so slow til' iv tried doodle. Doodling rocks..but the problem NOW is on how can i put this crazy cravings to halt? lol.

Sunday, July 6, 2008


doodle addict!!!
be happy...