YOU decide...

I am busy doing nothing. Thoughts are running through my head about a lot of things, especially the call of flesh. Right now -at this point of time, I am struggling between the cunning sexual desire and the desire to contemplate. You can’t really serve to gods. Contemplation about life and sexual appetite are totally opposite poles. You have to decide which way are you going to. Contemplation versus Sexual Desire, an ongoing struggle for each of us and lucky is the one who has found the perfect mate to enjoy the flesh without the guilt of the standards that’s has been laid upon by the culture. The standards that keep my head spinning on how I will attain exclusion or how will I twist the stated rules by inserting a sense of relativity. But RULES are absolute, universal, (and stiff ) – the books say, the wise men say, they say. Though these were intended to maintain order and equilibrium, in some points these also (somehow) create instability in someone’s world, in someone’s world created different from the scope of the cultural realms, but you’re too insignificant to be noticed (because you think you are). After a tedious and thorough contemplation about the standards – the must-do, the more I realized how hard it is to fit in yourself in the written standards if you see the world in a deliberate opposite to the rules embedded upon your soul. The rules are simply meant to give a façade of balance but obviously almost everything is on the space of instability – maybe lost in wilderness. NOW YOU DECIDE; Conformity to the world that’s running the opposite of its definition or conformity to what you think is right for you? The good way is the hard way – they say, again. But I am decided now – I conform to the things that will make me happy because at the end of the day it’s only my world, my own world.