last dance

THE FIRST DANCE

THE LAST DANCE

"You wear that smile again"
The same smile that struck me dead
That enclosed me deep in your eyes
That caught me tightly, strongly, faithfully
But the closeness that which I cannot touch

It’s everyone’s dream to interlace the cold fingers
To someone’s hands
And on the time we had it
We both clasped for whatever things might happen
For whatever steps we might arrive at
Or for whatever pace in life

But it’s all in the music
If the rhythm will conspire with us
To have the perfect jive
In a routine that will last

I said I don’t know how to dance
You hushed that lets just enjoy the night
As an inexperienced dancer
I became the king of the night
And you as my queen to tap

The melody made the beats
And we just let our feet
To sway and to play in the ball stage
Dancing, intricately, intimately
And with the feeling of endlessly

And tonight...
You wear the same smile again
But the music got mystified
I heard that you hushed again
That which I cannot figure out

Is it the commencement of the final dance?
Then again the clock rung there times
And then you cast in the dark
Leaving behind the golden slippers on my hand

-sunny

the last dance

fragile

I travelled million terrains
And I was ditched in a pit of loss
I went through lush foliage and stones
And I was scratched by a dozen thorns

Then I saw this rose
In a barbed, grassland woods
Crowded by others but I managed to focus
Because I was caught

And now two-way directions colliding
So far yet so near
So near to imagine
So far to reach then

Words are fine
Moves in silent shine
Stare that flashes million signs
So fragile, so fine

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iyak

Nang ika'y makita
Puso ko'y lumundag sa pagkagalak
Ngunit nang ang orasa'y tumunog
Ako'y lubusang natakot
Sa hinagpis mong galak
Sinigaw ang musika mong iyak
Tila'y humalinang kerubin
Napuspos ang kaba
Tinik sa dibdib ko'y guminhawa

Ang paglalakbay ay puno ng sorpresa
Tulad ng pagdausdos mong kabit ang tali sa kalooban ni ina
Sa dilim ika'y taimtim
Sa liwanag ika'y susubukin
Ano nga bang tatahakin
Katanungang pilit mong sasagutin

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YOU

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xoxoxo

The blue roses fill my room
Drops of scarlet red
From my heart's tear

The thorny stems that
Keep on enclosing me
Embracing the moment
Until I retire and die

The tip of your finger
Lingers on my face
Brushing down my loneliness
And watering my parched heart

But the rushing air
Sweeps us away
Loosens our tender grip
And the silhouette of love fades

i want

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breathe

- Death -
life...
It is a curse
The curse that was given to the first breath of life
The same curse that was given to my mum, to your mum, to you, and to me
The curse to a breeder to survive the bloodline curse – the struggle of two creatures
The curse to a provider to toil the ground with his own sweat and blood
The curse of life that we carry

Death is the answer
Evil are you
Evil is me
We both love malevolence
That is why I thank you
For the curse
For the evilness
And For the Death
For today is a reborn
The curse of life for me to achieve –death
And to love the sin within you…

"L"

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nothing and everything...

My mind was running swiftly, heavily, dangerously…
With no directions, no preparations, no maps
None at all
Collision in every passing lane
It’s Breaking, damaging, excruciating
Still no lesson learned
None at all

The people were hushing and then babbling, laughing and then shouting
In different tones, different languages, different thoughts
Diverse in all things
He was walking south, she was taking north, they were traversing the east, others on west
Diverse in all things

I joined them at once
In a walk, in run, in a flow of qualms
I got nothing but I joined them again, and again…
All for nothing

When time brought to halt
I got the drift of silence
I listened, I observed, I opened all my senses
But I felt, heard, seen, tasted and smelled nothing
I was shaken and felt that I was left alone in a sinister land

I wept, I sobbed, I cried aloud
“Where are you?”
I received silence, repeatedly
I was down on my knees with tears drying on my quivering hands

It was the first time
I felt the contact between my feet and the ground
The first time I saw the pearls on my eyes
The first time I heard the beats of life
The first time I felt my breathe
The first time I got a glimpse of the cross on my shoulders

And it was also the time
That I freed everything
I emptied my whole body
And I felt nothing

You showed me light…

NOW I am walking again BUT having my OWN WAY…
With YOU
Not with them…

LOVE "OR"...what?

I am still trying to figure out what is happening to me
Moreover, I am a tad anGRRrrry!
For the feelings that I can’t Spelle out correctly
For the tempo that s l o o o w w s s s my gist
For the Cnofnusoin contained by me
For the speech________________less occasion
And
For my stutstuttering and uhm uhm stam...stame…mering
That I cannot finish anthin…
And
The Silence
.
.
.
What does it mean?
However, I suppose I am F
a
l l
in
With
My wards-back thoughts, shallying-shilly, and valence-ambi
My mood swing
My UPS and
DOWNS
My pose that _opens_ and (closes) all the guarantees
But I want this fervid affection to grOW
By grasping no matter which about you
The BIG and the BOLD
The small and the timid
The simple and the BiZaRrE
The Black,White, and Gray…
The ? is…
Do I need to keepittight?
“OR”
I need to S_P_A_C_E it out
To comprehend all these things and to understand
This crazy feeling of cryptograph
Is it 143 = U and M.E?
“OR”
Is it “LOVE OR…what?

Im a filthy-happy man: draft din (as always)

HAPPiness trala-la-la-la

The music goes on
I have to move along
The sun shines and the moon illuminates
Day passes and still I have none at all
The rain waters the soil
My brain drains all reasons

My life’s overcast
And yet I don’t search for light
I dwell on and stay for a another night
But then further, another comes again

What makes me happy is unknown
But the reasons for my tears are at hand
Dire has won the battle
Noble has forgotten

Sobbing night gratifies
Yet the tears are in pouring grave
Does my heart smiles for gloom?
Or it just palliates the bareness inside?

I wander
I ask
I try hard to understand
But the only thing I need is to calm down
To listen
To feel

Then it starts to glow
Lightens up the lonely sights
Happiness is inside of me
I just need to realize
To sense that I live not to hunt
But to live through on it…

Slow down and enjoy life...
Nothing is wasted in a happy man...

love drive...

blossoming blues....

i hate today
seeing your face in whisper's distance
makes a road of thousand miles

you're in my touch
a chance to show my sunsire love
but it creates a dusk of lonely sights

the morning dew of tear
the shadow of sadness
an inch to my lost paradise

when will be the day
for me to say that i care a lot
i'm longing for you so much
i'm dreaming of you in an enveloping dark
hoping that tomorrow you're in my arms

maybe my feelings are not enough
in a mysterious tenderly catch

maybe my tears are just in a little cold cup
flowing in a desert's heart

and maybe my loneliness
can't make worry to God

but one thing is true
i'm in a blossoming blues
feeling of Love against the star and moon owing You...